waking up with cold sweat..
and I really don’t know what kind of feelings I have right now.
when you win, confidence boosts dramatically and eventually you look awesome.
when you lose, confidence drops
steep down, everything you do seems not right.
pressure is building up..really feel like hiding myself from the reality. the reality is so scary I thought of giving up. giving up, go back and do like what other people do.
I’m trying so hard to distract myself from the fact that I have to face. tried watching drama since I woke up in the morning till it’s time to sleep at night. even when I have to eat or shower, I’ll tend to keep the drama playing.. want it to create some noise in the house.
sometimes the ugly truth hit so hard, it makes me wanna fly home to my family. every night.. I feel so depressing.
tenths of attempts.. it’s enough. I’m tired of guessing. I am tired n I hate password protection.
y it has to be all so difficult? or am I making it difficult for myself? Hate it
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