hate/love

“you will learn to do things that you hate doing the most..that’s what you have to do in order to survive”

..zk was told

don’t tell

wee hours in the morning.. 0217 hours..

zk said: it’s not a secret anymore if u’ve written it in the blog…

xyz said: yeah.. but what’s the point of having a blog if i’m not going to write what i am thinking now? …the skill is.. to write it in such a way, people won’t think that it is referring to that one particular person..

zk: but sometimes i’m sure you want that person to know right?

xyz: misleadingly.. yeah lorr.. sometimes, you do want the person to know. and when you dont have the guts to tell it face-to-face, this is the best medium to go to (: 

zk: u’re so frickle-minded. if you don’t want ppl to know, don’t write in abc, then ppl won’t know lor

…and the conversation followed was personal ;p

 

…and that leads to me thinking, is it a good thing to always write what u’re thinking into a post in the blog? yeah, probably it is. people might know what you’re thinking and hence do something that you, unconsciously, want them to do. but sometimes, all that can be misleading as people who read it might think they are the one..or might not.. and u’ll be blarrdyyy pissed off.. haha

 

 

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detour? NO

was at work earlier on, it was a quiet day. pretty in contrary..judging that it’s Anzac Day today and there’s parade on Barrack St, just behind the pharmacy I worked at. and, being experienced, i knew there would be road closures. so i checked before i leave home. as i’ve expected.. i saw that blardy big >>D E T O U R >> in my way again. but i’m clever this time..haha, asked the traffic director to let me pass (: brilliant..

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having such a quite time in the pharmacy, i looked out to the pedestrian walkway..it started to drizzle a bit. then i thought bout the ‘interrogation’ i had yesterday. i smiled. well, i did had fun and it kinda release my stress a lot. this week has been cruel to me. but i felt much better after yesterday. thanks to u guys

and well, i still enjoy being single and unattached.  

 

no <detour> from where i am right now (:

 

too many things in mind

the night view takes the breath off…

the cold wind chills to the bone…

a warm waffle w cookies n cream, chips and mashed potato counteracts that…

and lastly,

corona xtra to blurped all the trouble off….

hopefully i sleep well tonight

14th of April

it might be just another random post from me..

as anticipated, being nervous today is different cos it’s the 2nd visit for the 1st rotation. that means another tutor gonna come in later to test me on my drug knowledge and see how am i doing in the pharmacy so far since the 1st visit. it was kinda weird that she (the tutor) did not call me before the long weekend to confirm the time. so… the frustating part was… i was all ready to be tested. all geared and all prepared; not really.. since i rushed all the last minute work ytd night, sacrificing my beauty sleep. ok, so i’m in the pharmacy waiting. the longer i waited, the more it doesn’t seem right. so i checked, found an email from curtin telling me that my visit was RESCHEDULED! and i should have received an email and a fax reflecting on that. WTF~ RESCHEDULED? and the fax came in this morning! shhheeettt~~ can’t you inform me a bit earlier? reflecting on how i spent my last day of the long weekend with those notes, workbooks and diary really pissed me off!!! it’s just frustating…and a mixed of emotions. glad that i could have more time to study but pissed off cos i’ve to study 4 more drugs + more entries into that stupid diary.

for the whole day, i admitted.. i did not pay much attention to what’s happening around. adding to that, i was Questioned by the pharmacist on the difference between Cartia and DBL Aspirin. Ok, back tracking.. that Q popped up many thanks to a doctor who prescribed DBL to a patient who is already on Cartia. So, of cos.. i’ll dispense what is written by the doctor. and my pharmacist disapproved me. i’m not sure if i’m being over-sensitive or what.. i get really frustated when he disapproved me at that instance. probably the tone or the way he’s saying it, just makes me furious. in a way, i’m disappointed with myself cos i kept on doing mistakes.. or maybe he just likes to pick on me. That question.. i just can’t find the difference. They both have 100mg aspirin..just different brand. I don’t see a big difference between them besides their colours of the tablets. At a point, I just get very pissed off, i just said “I don’t know”..sounded very impatient and dissatisfied. I just don’t care. Just give me the tablets and i will fill that 4 weeks of supplies for the patient!! Now.. i will bring the fact that “Cartia is enteric-coated” with me to my coffin!!

Now, with that visit rescheduled, i will have to reschedule all the stuffs that i wanted to do beginning tmr… $ % ^ & * ( !

this short working experience that i had so far really let me see different types of people.

shitty-proud-uncooperative ones  like that JTL..this one doesn’t wanna talk to me cos he think student-knows-nothing ..he told that directly to me. he himself, i think is a jerk! u get lost.. i don’t need your business!!

great loving couple with a sound mind..husband is almost 98 and wife is 80+. still comes in every week hand-in-hand..adores that they’re still so healthy and loving!

kind, considerate, warm old lady..this grey-haired popo came in asking for smtg that i couldn’t find for her but still, she carved a big kind smile, held my hand and say,”it’s okay love“. now.. that’s what i called “personal touch“. the kind that i did include as one of my business plan strategies (:

troublesome ones but still friendly..i called him B, he’s talkative but did no harm, praised me just because i remember his name everyday when he comes in. he’s troublesome cos he always wanna bring issues to talk about. be it his new medications or just the pedometer’s battery had run out. i guess he comes in everyday just to find someone to talk to. i’m not sure if he has other family members, cos i never ask. we just chat and he brings us grapes from his wineyard.

straight-forward ones..i hate telephone conversation cos i tend not to catch what they’re saying. she tried to tell me her italian name over the phone. but i had trouble noting it down. after 2 repeats, i still can’t get it. “I hate you” is what she told me. then i make her spelt it out for me d:

these are some that left me quite a vivid memory. there are some that might just leave unnoticed. but, we came across cos we’re fated to. and i know, it doesn’t stop just right here.

. . . .

Legs are still sore and butt still aches a bit from the trip. But, yeah.. it was fun. It’s been such a long long time since i felt so free on the pedals. Feeling the ocean wind slapping gently on my face and the adrenaline kicking in when i sped through the valleys. The feeling was sooo free.. but it was definitely not relaxing, cos we cycled about 8 hours with small breaks at the public or our  private beaches; cos there’s only us there. the beaches were awesome.  isolated bays and beaches,… cold crystal clear water on one side, dry hot sandy pitch on the other.. wind turbine on hilltop and vast green valleys. Rottnest is definitely a place to go again, but minus the cycling please. okay, probably cycle the whole island in one day again, i think better only to those spots IDed to be perfect (:

pictures from the trip will be uploaded right when i’ve got it (: patient peeps!

 

p/s: i’m quite disappointed that you left without saying goodbye

 

Good Friday

i’m not so sure why this particular friday is sooo special but according to a friend, it’s something to do with the crucifixion of jesus. But I’m sure, it’s definitely a good one.. cos i have holidays! well.. finally an official break, a long weekend break. *sighed* suddenly feel soo tired.

finally, a day to really sit down at home and do all the stuffs that i’ve been postponing for the last few weeks. heaps and heaps of work to do. the ‘good’ news is susan told me, “it’s just the beginning. next year gonna be worst”. hmm… i understand what she meant. in the pre-registration training, each of us have to submit a portfolio for that training year..and whether u’ll get registered as a “B.Pharm M.P.S” will depends on that portfolio and the-eerie-viva aural exam. most of the time when i’m going to sit for something important, i’ll always lie to myself.. “all the previous ones also i can do, this time wouldn’t trouble me at all” or.. “everyone also can do it, i don’t understand why zK cannot”.. all these hynotising phrases were those words to make myself not to worry too much :) and luckily, till now.. it still works at time.

as I don’t feel good a few days before cos so many things popped up unexpectedly, I treated myself in ikea yesterday. As i’ve said, i began to lose interest at sitting long hours studying in the room. Well, to compensate for that, i bought myself something I like so that it’ll attract me to sit longer at that particular corner of the room. So, I bought myself a study/floor lamp. i like how it creates a warmer ambience for me to study..minus that shadown of mine on my notes ♥

zK's war-zone :)

It’s a long weekend, and me..being zK, can’t really sit still at home. I’m working tmr for a double-pay day and on sunday, i’m heading to Rottnest island..regardless of the rotation visit on tuesday. hopefully, i won’t screw it up though. i don’t wanna remember all the headache stuffs.. i just wanna have fun before rotation kicks in again with following oral assessment and exams.

ttyl.. ciao!

Happie Easter peeps :)

 

 

 

thank you

thank you for calling from a thousand miles away just to check if i’m feeling better today

thank you for listening to me

thank you for cheering me up

thank you for making me feeling ‘shy’

thank you for talking to me

thank you for sharing my ‘depressed matters’

thank you for reminding me to open my eyes when driving

thank you for helping me to expand my market :p

thank you for everything

you had been, still is, and will be a loving buddy

…that simple ‘take care’ really means a lot suddenly

thank you

miss ya

you take care too!

 

..and also thanks to all the ppl who showed that they still care

loves you all 

 

a sad story than sadness

thinking hard enough, i still can’t remember since when i like to watch movies/drama by this particular korean actor. he’s one great actor..esp if it’s those with very sad story line. he’s superb in crying!  and it’s freaking real! he’s kwon sang woo. and i’ve been searching up and down the web to download his new movie.. but i can’t seem to find it. reportedly, they need to subtitle it before ppl like us can understand… arggh… i can’t wait. replenishing the urge, i’m being pampered by the OSTs now. it’s probably good to watch these movie/drama once a while. gets you to cry a bit.. well, release stress also..

am looking forward to it..

_tears flooded eyes_

 

_kwon sang woo_

 

… ta

p/s: thanks sis for sending me those songs :)

..a close one

a brush with the demon told me to be aware and pay utmost attention to what i’m doing.

i nearly crash my car into another car yesterday.. well, i wasn’t sure whether it’s mine or his fault. but it’s definitely a close one. when it was thatttt near.. suddenly..*pop* i’m awake. in another way, i gotta thank the other driver as well.. if it’s not him who turn his car to the other side, it would have ‘bang’.

i need to re-collect myself..

.. i need a change

i need to wake up!

seedings

“Mistakes are painful when they happen, but years later, a collection of mistakes is what is called experience”