uNTITLED

wE aRE aLL sOMETHING, bUT nONE oF uS iS eVERYTHING   .pascal b.

toxicity

words blundered.. knife blunted.. right into the left chest.

“zk, you’re weak!!” … followed by a long sigh. was what uttered to me.

and it kept me pondering, am i really that weak? 4 years! what have I been doing for the past 4 years? blinding my way through that bloody “easy” B.Pharm and managed here by a tiny-weeny bit of luck??

yes, i have a high self-esteem.. and so i can’t accept it!

i’ve always thought that i am good.. well, maybe not that superior, but at least i know what i am doing and i know my stuffs! should i probably reconsider all that now?

maybe i’m not that good afterall?

one consoled, “it’s better to make mistake now than later..”

i can understand the theory behind it, but now, the disappointment is there..

essential elements of stress-harm

1. affirms stress and regards exam as a cruel thing
2. only postpone and procrastinating, no hastening
3. gives no comfort and worsen negative symptoms
4. integrates neither psychological and spiritual aspects
5. no supports = seizure > coma > death!

just being ridiculous and bored~ while studying Palliative Care for tomorrow’s paper :)

Addiction?

Dependence = no good

Withdrawal effects = even worst

worn out week

4 weeks of lectures sounded good… but not when it’s accompanied by exams.

i wanna buy time

i’m stressing out cos i want to read a lot of materials, but i haven’t got enough time.

sorry that i stressed you out as well

i wanna go back

i wanna see my family

i wanna see my dogs

Happy 11th

It’s better late than never..

Happie 11th Anniversary!

It’s been more than a decade and it’s a wonder having to know the -us-

Words can’t describe how much I miss all the moments we shared together!

Loves you all

xoxo

_zk_

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no more kitchen for the time being.. let me starve!

it’s the 3rd . it hurts . it scars

DAMN

DSM-IV diagnostic tool

Studying the Generalised Anxiety Disorder, i came across these symptoms:

1. restlessness
2. easily fatigued
3. difficulty concentrating / mind going blank
4. irritability
5. muscle tension
6. sleep disturbance

how come it all looks so familiar?

am I having GAD? I’m always worried…

I’m sooo deadddd

a lie

” continue on a lie that has been started “

that’s the words lingering in my mind still.

to advance with a lie is difficult, especially when you always have to find one new lie to cover the previous one.

it’s tiring.

it’s confusing.

people always said; to lie is not a good thing to do!

but what if the lie gives comfort ?

when one day, you decided not to lie anymore,

you tell the truth

then

you realised,

it’s not any better after you have tell the truth.

.. so bad, you rather have not admit to the lie.