3 words, 13 letters

.d.r.o.p. .d.e.a.d. .t.i.r.e.d.

preventer or reliever?

the last exam, Pharmacotherapy aural test was bad.. from how i see it. It was terrible cos when oksana or anna asked me questions.. i just bombarded them with whatever i have in my mind. not that i dont remember… i’m freaking nervous. they were sitting in front of me, less than a meter away..and on my far left, i can hear the stupid timer clicking every seconds as it goes. in my head, i was counting… oh shit.. i dont have much time left!! 15 minutes, 5 cases and 20 questions in total… it’s MAD and i can feel my heart racing. seeing that.. oksana kept on calming me down cos even i myself dont know what i’m talking about.

3 days since the last aural exam ends… and these 3 days really passed sooo quick! without realising.. it’s already sunday and means tmr i gotta get my ass up at 0630..get ready in my best attire with my best look to greet my boss at 0900. my first day at work..

haha… actually i’m not sure whether i should be proud or ashamed to tell everyone that’s reading my blog that it would be my first working experience in 21years of my life. well.. looking it at a positive way, cos i have very good parents who love & pampered me for these 21 years.. nourishing me with plenty of wisdom n care  :) and now, it’s probably time to get started so i can, in turn, shower them with loves and gratitude.

i’m very much looking forward to see where my boss, mr R, would lead me to. i’m curious. i’m eager. to see what’s awaiting me. i guess i’m really lucky to get the job when i needed it…at the right time, at the right place. it’s more than what i’ve wished for…and hopefully this luck gonna continue with me for as long as it could. well.. i guess these 8 weeks; 320 hours would be a fulfilling one.

time to get a full recharge now :) will be back soon

the purpose

the skies are so bright and sunny

i wanna get out for a while

6 days n nights studying

it feels nauseating

but it has to go on

what’s the purpose of all these?

what’s the purpose of getting myself into all these?

everytime when it comes to exam period.. i feels awful.

but it’s for your own good zk

bear with it

*sighed*

can’t wait to finish all these~

Lecture note #5

Lecture note #5: Sleep disorders

Factor contributing to insomnia: Pharmacotherapy.

Aetiology: a state of marked impairment in sleep quality, diminished physical activity and psychologically depressed.

Signs & symptoms:

1. Inability to memorise all of the lecture notes piled in front of the eyes.
2. Inability to sleep to remain asleep through the night. Develop on-off sleeping with frequent arousals.
3. Daytime sequelae includes impaired concentration, tiredness, micro sleeps, day dreaming, irritability, suppressed appetite

Exact biological role: Unknown
Necessary for survival through Year 3.
Necessary for emotional and physical wellbeing for passing Finals.

Statistics: Large and widely recognised problem in the current Year 3 Pharmacy Students ~ 149 people (Access Economics for Sleep Health Curtin)

Classifications:

Acute: 2 weeks
Chronic: unknown

Alarm symptoms: Absence seizure (blank stare), migraine headache, muscle aches, nausea, vomitting.

Requires urgent referral if signs and symptoms worsen over 5 days (Therapy medicamentosa)
lll-.-

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HAPPIE BURF’DEY MOM!

to my dearest mom,

it was exceptional this year as i wouldnt be able to celebrate with you in person. i know how shy but extremely happy you are everytime bro, sis and i brought out the birthday cake for you. and dad would belt out the birthday song for you :) counting back the years, i guess celebration as such only aged 7 or 8 years at most. cos i’m the one who initiate such celebration.. with the help of bro and sis who always helped me to find excuses to go out and buy the ‘surprise’ birthday cake. i know .. you always pretend to be surprised! i remember how sis and i always cant reach a common suggestion on the type of cake to buy. on one hand, we want it to be different from the previous years. but on the other, you and dad always prefer the back-to-old-school pandan sponge cake. so i guess, what makes it different is to buy from different bakery every year :) hahaha.. and as always, we always have dinner outside whenever it’s someone’s birthday.. be it dad’s or our treat.. but usually it’s on dad! :) back to the home.. off the lights, emm.. not all, keep the dim-yellow stairs light on (ahem..to create the atmosphere).. ‘trolley-ed’ the lighted cake and belt our the ever-classical-happy birthday to you song. though it might sounds silly.. who cares?! haha.. Then, with the presence of lucky and milkshake, we even carried them along to sing together with us :p but milkshake has her attention only on the cake. we’ll then savour the sweetness of the feeling of being together, laughing and talking on whatever topics we can get. just now you asked me whether i loved it here. my heart says,”it’ll be the best if you all are here with me.” when i was pondering, you said you know i’m lonely.. at that moment, i think my tear came rolling down my cheeks. somehow.. i’ll think.. i will see you all in a few months time. then i’ll treasure every second being at home. Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! LOVE YOU~

  ♥   loves  ♥ 

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that phrase suddenly reminds me of what bro told me last night. now that my sis is working for an event, only the three of them (bro, mom and dad) went for dinner in broga. usually we’ll head to broga on weekends cos dad always says it feels like holiday when he’s there. but yesterday, when only the three of them went, bro said it’s much more quiet than before and he miss having all of us sitting around the table, laughing, joking and chatting, make fun of/tease him. awwww… my heart straight away shrinked. My bro has always prefer talking to me instead of my sis.. cos apparently my sis always bully him. or probably we have more things in common than that between my sis and him. so, almost everytime we cammed online, he will ask me when i’m going back.

honestly, i never thought i’m so attached to my family. i thought i’ll be able to live well without my family around me cos whenever my parents nag me, i just cant stand it. i thought… “good, next time live outside.. nobody is going to nag and control where i’m going.” but looks like.. this is not really the case now. 

 

 

說好的幸福呢 ?

說好的幸福呢 has been repeating itself on the player.. i guess i’m never sick of it

 

 

of all the mv, “给我一首歌的时间” disappoints me the most. that’s soo not him. he looks more like usher than he himself. *thumbs down*

still awake at this time.. attributed by “cappuccino + chocolate”. doing some research on the causative factor, wiki told me cappuccino =  espresso+hot milk+steamed-milk foam. great~ it works so effectively on me. not a tiny bit of tolerance to it. unlike waiyee, who requires a caffeine-free-period for at least 72 hours to see this magnificient effect of caffeine. she developed enormous tolerance to coffee. not a knick of effect on her :)

negation

it is purely denial.

 

do i really not mind? am i really that generous? i’m not sure.

probably, as u’ve said .. based on my character, i’ll just keep it to myself.

yes, i think i would.

but is it.. 

willingly or reluctantly?

 

.. denial

the only thing that i need to concentrate now is my finals!

nothing is more important than that.

i dont give a damn on what’s wrong and what’s not.

in another 3 weeks, i’ll get my wings back.

then i shall step into a fulfilling new phase of existence..

 

but now, it’ll be solely denial