unpredictable

everything seems to be unpredictable…

the rain

the wind

the traffic

Mj’s death

my cough reflex

lonely?

i see what you mean..

when the people you love and care most leach off one by one

the sense of loneliness

deafly silence ringing like tinnitus

it haunts when you think they will never return

失落沙洲

又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

…

contemplating . circumventing . procrastinating

ipod playing 如果我变成回忆 by Tank

hugging my comfy warm pillow… i’m proscrastinating. been wasting most of hours tonight.. delaying all the work i’m supposed to do today. and today, i’m way behind my intended schedule. why? my brain is blank when i wanna start on my workbook and eyes can’t open when i wanna start reading the pharmacist’s bible-equivalent, Aust Medicines Handbook. Then i realised i haven’t been updating this site for ages since holidays. Now, i’m into the 2nd week of the new semester… it’s quick isn’t it?! Half of the year gone!!

circumventing.. Yes I Am. That’s what i’m doing. I’m thought to avoid that someone. And when she’s not around.. i felt at my best! wondering why, who? She’s someone who (i’m not sure whether unconsciously or purposely) stepped on my tail.. why? I was kinda pissed off when she told me to stop doing what i’m doing when all i want is just to help. Ok, i gotta admit that you have more experience than me.. but anyway, you’re just an assistant ok. don’t try to put up your more-superior-kinda-face on me. i dont care. what till i got M.P.S.. beware assistants! i’ll come after ya…

Decisions should be made. Sooner or later. I have to come out with something… Should i or shouldn’t i go? It might sound ridiculous but i kinda starts missing stuffs in Perth.. what? i dont know.. it’s just an invisible bond built. strong? i’m not sure.. But, starting a new life in Brisbane does sound attractive and interesting. However, it’s gonna be me on my own walking that pharmacy stretch over there. It kinda looks scary when everything in front of me are still foggy.. Don’t rush me… i’m contemplating!