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i know i shouldn’t think so much now..

especially when it’s time to study my pharmaceutics for mid sem exam next week.

but i dont know what i have in my mind, i just couldn’t concentrate. every little single thing is distracting me away.. been hanging onto the 3 slides on page 2 for almost an hour. didnt get to flip it cos it seems that i havent get those stuffs into my memory yet. wth! my mind lingers everywhere now.. even dated it back to 2001 or 2002.. i’m not sure. some up to 5 yrs into the future!

gonna be real dead this time.. hopefully the mid sem exam wouldnt be a tough one. not much time left to study.. move on!

pray hard!!

a week break off

tuition-free week was filled with an outing to the southwest of WA. being adventurous enough to drive there was one heckof a headache initially with parents worrying bout our driving skills. but.. worry no more cos we’re back..safe and sound :) well, thanks a lot to the ever-so-noisy global positioning system (gps), which sometimes gives directions to non-trusted-locations, restaurants especially! they’re not up-to-date and kept on directing us to those that were “co-incidently” closed!

after a-so-thorough planning, we set out to the bayswater rent-a-car facility in the city. “smart” me, who suggested to go by train.. we ended up at wellington st, which is quite a distance away from adelaide tce, where the facility is located. tongue-twisting and card swipping, we got ourselves 2 toyota 1.8L hatches + navman gps.

setting out a straight 3 hours journey on the dry fields occasionally by small towns and stopovers, gotta admit that those freeways were not excitting at all. plus, driving at a maximum of 110km/h was torturing on those straight, smooth and car-less highway.. u know what i meant. pity gyn who was on the wheel at that time. so we have to keep her company to keep our life on bay :p spotted a life-less kangaroo on the way.. what a pity. always beware of wildlife when driving on countryside..a friend’s advice.

checking into the beach house.. it was awesome! no wonder, everyone was reluctant to leave. fully furnished and it feels very much like home :) but, for sure the company is of utmost importance. headed to buy all the stuffs that we need and spotted sunset on gnarabup foreshore. from the top of the cliff.. we actually spotted whales! not close-up but we know that’s from a whale!! everyone was pretty exhausted but nevertheless, we made ourselves a hearty dinner, sat together for a movie which dated back ages ago, gosh.. i dont even know what’s the title of the movie but it’s stupid!

headed out for a scaled out itinerary the next morning, drove along caves road to the southwest tip to augusta where cape leeuwin lighthouse is. scaled about 170 steps to the top of the lighthouse to be swept by crazy strong cold wind, overlooking the point where two oceans, southern ocean and indian ocean, meet. thinking 170 steps were pretty exhausting enough, not till we’re crazy enough to physically exert ourselves to another 300+ steps into jewel cave. prior to that, an exhausting 25minutes walk through the forest trails which seems endless. already fighting the time to gather at the entrance of the cave for a guided tour, but we cant find over way out of the forest and the trails seem endless. the 1 hour tour in the cave was amazing. god’s creativity was one to look up to. those lime stones really looks like a lava hill and those “straws”..they’re amazing! a total of about 500 steps.. not so enough. so, we treated ourself with another 300+ in lake cave.. it was crazy. we can really feel the shortness of breath, lactic acid accumulating in the leg muscles, cramps in calves etc. again, it was all forgotten when we’re in the cave, greeted by astonishing floating tables of lime stones and those reflections made by the lighting effects was a memorable one, when we’re about to climb back up, tiredness crippled up again. i think we had enough. being so exhausted… we went to treat ourselves with something good and brought bottles of wine from voyager estate, one of the premium wine producers in margaret river. semillon and merlot helps to get us high when the dark sets in. getting together, talking, crazy around, let loose of tensioned nerves, laughing out loud..etc. got even crazier when there’s some -OH factors. everyone was out of their minds i think. looking back on those videos made me laugh. silly!! i ended up 80% of losing my voice the next day but still darn happy. siao~

fun times always pass so soon.. it’s time to pack. but we still managed to make a few stops at the dairy co. for margaret river’s yoghurts, simmo’s for award-winning creamy ice creams and the longest wooden jetty in the southern hemisphere, busselton jetty. guess everyone was pretty exhausted with the full-scaled itinerary as the 2 hours journey back was a quiet one :)

simply loves it. especially the sunsets.. it’s breathtaking!

more pictures in facebook!

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it’s cruel to remind myself that i’m having exams next week with an aural assignment! arrghh.. counselling!

 

to or not to?

being in this healthcare prospect, sometimes things can be of a little dilemma.

eg: you are self diagnosing, you are sick and you know all the while this drug has been giving you relief. but you are not taking it the way you should be taken. DEEP down, you know this is incorrect and your profession tells you that this is wrong. BUT it will gives you relief.

to take? or not to take?

*sighed*

remarkable tenth!

10 years.. and still counting. 19th of August marked the TENTH friendship’s day honoured, observed, marked, celebrated, whatever you name it. it’s “wow” to whoever you tell that to.. be it times when we’re still in convent or now, when everyone in the gang is on their separate ways. still, nothing change the cherished bond between members of -us-, and nothing will. despite the fact that not everyone is in malaysia to make their presence felt at the gathering in the falls last sunday, but today i felt so close to each and every one of them..even by just texting. chye li, eva, eveline, jeannie, pui ling, sher wi, syok foon, wei ann, y ji, yen mei, yinng… loves you all dearrr! i miss our outings, our laughters, our gossips, our volley sessions under the rain, our activities at the class corridors, our heart-2-heart talks.. all so vivid in mind, and most of all, i miss you all in person sooo much!! .. xoxo

p/s: rekindle all that at the end of year when everyone will make their way back to msia k? promise! :)

secret

it just strike my efferent nerve endings to click on “secret” .. for the 3rd time. guess i havent get sick of it yet. and though it’s the 3rd time, it never fails to make my eyes watery… a 108steps, 15apples, the 4 hands-play.. it got stuck in so clearly this time. sad but meaningful.. appreciate the ppl around you cos you never know when you’re going to lose them. 

i can’t close my eyes till it’s wee hours in the morning. ended up yawning and dozing in the class and pushing hard to withstand the hynotising lectures. in vail, i dozed off in a barely 10minutes break, showed how tired am i. plus, nowadays lectures were made to be 2 instead of the usual 1 hour.. another point to the cons. though i might be able to sleep till late hours in the morning, it’s still mentally exhausting. an interrupted biological clock.

marked an end to week 3. the beginning of week 4 is going to started off tough with “Formulations”. followed by multidisciplinary labs and dispensary. straight on from monday to friday. not much of a rest this coming week it seems. when i complained bout the hectic schedule this week, i was bombarded with critics saying that i has got plenty of breaks for the past 3 weeks and now, my time has come. i guess so.. but shouldering a positive outcome, i’m looking forward to my fourth week. cos the sooner it comes, means the sooner i’ll have my weak 5 tuition-free week!

what am i waiting for?

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“what do you think of me?”

that’s one question that caught me today. how would you answer that?

as quick as it got me, it strikes me.. it’ll be denial and careless if i just give a list of all the dazzling positive adjectives that i can find to describe someone. kind, hardworking, caring, loving, optimistic, cheerful, adorable, alluring, friendly, classy, cool, courageous, bright, enthusiatic, gentle,  vivacious, understanding, outstanding.. and the list goes on and on. to make things worst, that person may thinks that you’re just consoling them. a persona = the mercury in your thermometer.. temperate and variable. is that one word really that important?? it’s just good when i’m comfortable with them around… good to snug in with them..feeling homely, warm and unpretentious. at times, you just wanna cuddle them and tell them how much you love their company..how much you wanna spend more time with them. and when you just know them so well, you’ll know how they react to your questions or answers.. caught them laughing over on the other end, break it and they’ll be delighted that you just know them.. so damn well!!

all and over, that’s where the “antonym” comes from. where there’s good, bad is always right behind. someone who knows you too well or not knowing you at all, might as well be an ignorant. it’s just sooo hard to get people to understand you, they don’t know what you’re thinking.. pretty worst still, they don’t give a damn on how you feel. sometimes, you’re not sure whether if it’s real or they acted as if they don’t know. when you just keep quiet and expect them to do something about it..ignorance steps in again. what can you do? conceiving that everything is fine and all is just perfect. at the instinct of reality, you know it’s fallacious.. !! existence !!

that’s just how a life is..

a syndrome?

Y : lecturers for pharmchem were so stylish.. see wolfgang, so “ying”, paul also not bad with his new haircut. eh zk, you can become a pharmchem lecturer also.

zk: haha.. not bad, not bad.. i’ll consider that!

Y : then next time your student ask why you’re late for lectures.. tell them “i’m late cos i need to blow (using a hairdryer) my hair”  *wink*wink* + [physically combing]

zk: cisss!! [physically hitting Y]

lesson from the above conversation, never tell your friends that u blow to style your hair when u’re just 5 minutes from being late for lectures! they’ll remember it for life! and you’ll never get away from it!

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no idea what was wrong.. but these days,a little trigger will make me go crazy. no idea which food i took which promotes the release large amount of endorphins :) and once i started, it took me really some time to stop. from who did i get the virus from? no idea. but there’s virus spreading around the hse and everyone has got some new traits in them after the holidays.

at breakfast, wanyin will start asking what’s the plan for that night.. and the plan for tmr morning when having dinner. She used to be the ‘kick-also-wont-go-out‘ kind

gyn loves to hibernate in the house now.. who used to nod profusely when asked to join for shopping

dont know who’s her sifu but she’s soo good in teasing ppl now, so never mess with waiyee now. who’s also the brilliant creator of unit4’s bbc cum head of papparazzi.. and “i’m the cameraman” ..you know where that come from :)

emily would proudly be the donor of fussy sp. virus.. confirmed to have successful infected gyn and waiyee. evidence showed that it’s highly contagious.. keep out of reach!

rach, on the other hand, has some sort of invisible fats..no idea how she got it. she can just walked out the house in tiny-weeny thin jacket when the temperature was just 10+.. and in the wee hours when everyone in the house was freezing cold.

zk.. has been quite a pig nowadays. was getting pretty fatigue and lethargy at late noon, so by evening, the eyelid was heavy and dozed off. gyn said she spread that sleepy virus to me. probably it’s due to the nice cold weather in the evening + insufficient sleep at night.

a simple trigger, just the dish tray, colour-full n colour-half, .. has got me laughin like mad in target today. silly me.. they said i got bit too ‘high’. but without me.. u all also wont be so happy la. right?! plus, we came across this “BOCHOX” which provides choco-relief. Picture as below;

KEEP OUT OF REACH OF CHOCOHOLICS!

this is a “CONFECTIONER ONLY REMEDY” replacing the usual “PHARMACIST ONLY MEDICINE“.

WARNING: MAY CAUSE WEIGHT GAIN IF USED INCORRECTLY

DIRECTIONS: SIMPLY BREAK OFF THE DESIRED DOSAGE AND CONSUME. YOU SHOULD BE OVERCOME BY STRESS-RELIEVING ENDORPHINS AND NO LONGER CONCERNED IN THE SLIGHTEST ABOUT YOUR WRINKLES!

IMPORTANT: THIS PACKET IS PROTECTED BY A TAMPER-EVIDENT PAPER WRAP. IF SEAL HAS BEEN BROKEN, SUSPECT EVERYONE. BOCHOX CAN BE HABIT FORMING.

!! NOT TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY

i bet the manufacturer of this brilliant product is a pharmacist who got bored of dispensing OTCs and scripts. time to change.. prescribe BOCHOX! in which the most probably side effects are weight gain, craving and dependency. packaging looks decent and clean, at the first glance, you wont realise that it’s actually chocolate in it. not until you read the label and voila, it’s identical to “pharmacist only medicine”. Brilliant!!

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it’s been a tiring day. hardly sit at home today.. been out of the house for almost 12 hours! it feels like saturday.. i almost forgot that i still have lectures tmr. arrgghh… 8 till 1! gotta head to bed now or else, ppl would need to wake me up tmr :p geee…

nitez.

muse

it left me pondering..

who am i before all this?

how was my life before this?

talking to someone who is brighter and wiser get myself thinking of what is currently going on with the inner me. i’m awed ..on how much of what she had said reflects those in me. being introduced to the “humanity vehicle”, can’t be denied that i do learn something from them

thinking if life after death do exist, how powerful ones mind and soul can be

and the most interesting part was that the person standing in front of you now actually has intricate threads of many previous beings. owing to various causes and conditions, he is who he is now. but, a single trigger may bring out the thread of the inner beings

how many threads have i slotted in?

every single thing occupies a space, when it is emptied, it’ll be replaced..sooner or later

reflecting on my “inner conscious”, counting on how many tangible and intangible attachments that i’m clinging onto, how would all these attachments leads to happiness and grieves, how would it affects the decisions that i’m making, how would the decisions made will affect the people around me

..knowing that an attachment, be it emotionally or material vice, wouldn’t be permanent

 

a new face

just as promised, an update. but this time, with a new face. gotta change once a while and to tag with the hectic life which was deemed to arrive, this is an easier option to keep posting and tagging photos. all will be done with some photoshop and a single click.. there it goes. hopefully, with this no-fuss opt, postings will done more frequently.. pls bare with me, sometimes assignments, reports n works piled till the top of my head..

exactly a week since i leave msia, gotta really say.. I MISS EVERYTHING IN IT. never realised i loves msia soo much. shopping, movies, bkbing, king, familying and of cos, not forgetting to catch up with members of -us-. thank you all for slotting in zk in your busy schedule and foremost, to some, not attending class to go lunch with me =) to those that i didnt manage to spend time with, sorry..make it the next time i come back k. frankly, 5 weeks really weren’t enough! spending time with your loved ones..which includes my beloved doggies.. :p really goes in a breeze..

arriving in perth, nothing much has changed.. except for the weather. being colder and even more windy than that when i left. it gets tough to walk against the wind and finally realised that there’s no point walking under the rain with an umbrella. i’m currently hunting for a wind-proof umbrella! it’s a wet winter.. having rained almost everyday.. but without fail, i’m going out almost everyday. spending like nobody’s business.. shit today marked the end of the first week of lectures. ohio to the coming busy weeks. stay focused! paying utmost attention

 

..gonna miss you all very much

lots of luvs