heart shrunk
lungs collapsed
I can’t breathe

should have learnt ignorance
but I couldn’t have care less

why?

why do I lose out?
which part has I not done good enough?

why do I lose out?
why?

the experience haunts me

what is the intention??

people who pretend to have not finish studying /at all when they have basically covers everything.. fuck off !!

2 years back, I came to this place which is a total stranger to me, listening to this song.
the same song and now, it made me realize how time flies. I have fond memories of those times, although it’s difficult times. without them, there wouldn’t be a stronger zk today

samaritans

caleb, catherine and murray,

would have to deal with the damn stupid RAC to provide me with roadside assistance if it’s not for you guys.

appreciate your help a lot.

may He bless you guys

billy

i came across this old lady today. she had bruises on her cheeks and forehead; and a patch of square fixomull attached across the bridge of her nose. she walked towards me and initiated the talk. she said the place she lives in has this crazy people who yells and screams at night and she is not comfortable in it. And me, having to know where is the place she is talking about, I felt sorry for her. my heart shrank for a moment. Wanting to change the topic, i asked her for her name. for a moment, she paused. then she replied, “now, you really make me think. i don’t remember”. i was stunned. then i realised she would be one of them, those who forgets what has happened and does not remember who and where they are. i didn’t know how to react. i didn’t know what to say. in my heart, i thought,”man, now you make me think hard!!”. but she quickly forgot what i have just asked her. she turned around and walked away, then she looked back to me, asked me to follow her. Somehow, I didn’t move an inch. She walked back towards me and holding my hand, she said,”Come, follow me, I’ll show you my friend who is a very nice person”. But of course, i rejected her. I know I’ll see her again. Somehow, I’m looking forward to see her. Afterall, she is a very sweet lady.

.saturday.

.those grey clouds are outlined with shiny bright streeks.

. leaves are moving with the rhythm of the wind.

.the shy sun is hiding behind the clouds.

.cold feets.

.cold hands.

.hot coffee.

.day off.

awake

it was dark and wet, all I saw in front of me was drops of water, looks like tearsdrops.. all over the windscreen. don know when, i fell into this deep thoughts which took my mind away.. drifting, as i walked away from reality. at one point, suddenly i saw three bright red lights in front of me. it was so glaring, it brings me back to realise i’m just metres away from it. i stepped on the pedals. god knows iI still know tht if i stepped hard on it, i’ll end up skidding away. in less than 3secs, i looked back on my back mirror, those yellow bulbs were inches away. the next thing i heard was a bang! now… i’m fully awake!!!

nuisance

it isnt my fault, but i dont know why i cried about it. probably things has been building up and i’ve been always finding channels to let it go, and then, one door finally opens up for me.

我知道被疼是一种运气