pressure is building up..really feel like hiding myself from the reality. the reality is so scary I thought of giving up. giving up, go back and do like what other people do.

I’m trying so hard to distract myself from the fact that I have to face. tried watching drama since I woke up in the morning till it’s time to sleep at night. even when I have to eat or shower, I’ll tend to keep the drama playing.. want it to create some noise in the house.

sometimes the ugly truth hit so hard, it makes me wanna fly home to my family. every night.. I feel so depressing.